hi

so school's here again. and its been only three days but somehow im dead tired. slept twelve hours last night. but im still tired. and my god, got so much work to do over the weekedn. and ms ng wants to give us an organic chem quiz on monday and oh no i havent studied for it yet. sigh. life as a j2 sucks already. of course the going out part has been carefully omitted.

right. im so happy that ms ng's my form teacher! haha and my class at ten pple seems to be the right size or sth but i dunno, suddenly im laughing so much in class. everyday we're all laughing haha i dun rmb laughing this much in one day, last year. so yah, that part's quite fun. haha.

oh im wearing specs! haha again. this time it's white not that hideous crap i wore in primary school haha tho i still look hideous, its not half as bad. i just look super nerdy now. but oh well, its all part of my plan to turn INTO a new leaf. tree, rather. hopefully the specs give me some MOTIVATION or sth haha. i need it.

okay so i need to lose weight! im on this major weight reduction programme haha ive actually been drinking juice during recess. yes, juice. haha im sure desiree's proud of me. im the one who needs to lose weight that girl's slightly blind.

haha i must say my soya bean rice balls will still remain my hot favourite and plus plus! its healthy yay. haha sometimes life's not all that bad. haha. oh and granola bars too. yay some things i like that im actually permitted to eat. haha ill have to throw all my prawn rolls out tho. its like temptation island! haha.

anywae, i was hit by the emo spell this afternoon, lucky i was at home by myself and din emo-fy other pple haha.

is it wrong for your whole world to suddenly turn into just one person? and u feel that everyone else is somehow changing and maybe moving on or surrounded by so many pple but somehow u just dun feel left out coz u feel your world is perfect already? oh well, i guess happiness is all that's impt at the end of the day. and different pple get happiness in different forms. and things that are right and things that are wrong are perceived differently. that's all fine, really. im just glad im not trying to be someone im not. coz i think that's cheating yourself and the happiness that comes that way, is shortlived coz its not real. and sometimes being boring and doing simple stuff like eating rice balls in the park with your favourite person in the world is what brings real happiness that doesnt come by often.

so why are so many people in the world still trying to be someone else? why is everyone society controlled and no one listens to their hearts or their heads anymore?

coz the best part is, they dun noe it coz they dun even noe who they are anymore.

don't try to deny it, if ure defending yourself, you're guilty of it too.

sigh.